Thursday, May 14, 2009

Update on MAM...

Well, it's been awhile since I last posted. Just thought I'd give you an update on me, in case anyone cares.
I feel like a new person. Really. I'm "almost" divorced from the man I've been with since I was 15 years old. The man I never thought I'd get over. Well, guess what? I'm over him. I will care about him forever but I do not love him anymore. I have found someone else for whom I am little by little falling head over heels. But we're taking it very, very slow. Lots of baggage - both of us - lots of obstacles - but it could be well worth the efforts...only time and patience will tell...
I have made peace with my soon-to-be-ex-husband and his girlfriend. No, really. I can actually talk and laugh with my ex now and even with his girlfriend. They have started taking our son for visits and my son is enjoying it. My soon-to-be-ex still has not paid me one red cent toward the household or our kids' care though.
I don't weigh myself ever but I knew I'd lost quite a bit on the "divorce diet" since January, but could only guestimate. Well, went for my first mammogram and first OB/GYN visit in 11 years (yes, I know - my bad) and when I got on the scale - it was confirmed - I have lost 35 lbs since January. I don't recommend this method of weight loss, but it is nice getting a head start like this and looking in the mirror and not even recognizing the body staring back at me. I find myself shocked when guys flirt with me. I forget I'm not still very overweight. I would, however, like to lose 35 more pounds. I think I'd look much better and feel even better too.I have started indoor tanning, which I've never done before. Only been one time so far, but we'll see...
My martial arts have suffered because of all this. I have missed the past 4 weeks of karate due to different circumstances either due to health issues or other responsiblities with which I had to deal. I am going back tonight after these 4 weeks and I can't wait to see everyone. I am ready for a hard workout. Okay, a moderate workout...
Anyway, I'm in a much better place now. Worried about the financial impact this divorce is going to bring about, but emotionally, I'm in a better place than I've been in a long, long time.
Thanks for sticking by me through all this!

3 comments:

Becky said...

I'm glad to hear things are looking up for you! Divorce is such a hard thing.

Martial Arts Mom said...

It sure is. But I sure am crazy about my new guy. I hear through the grapevine that the grass is not quite as green on the other side of the fence for my soon-to-be-ex and his girlfriend...I feel so sorry for him...NOT! LOL

Perpetual Beginner said...

Thanks for updating, MAM. I'm relieved to hear from you - I've been thinking about you a lot. It's good to hear that you're in a better place - it's so much easier to deal with adversities of any kind when we're not feeling pummeled by the world.