I talk too much. Always have. Always will.
I also tend to speak before I think. I have gotten better about that as I've gotten older, but not much.
I have not really stuck my foot in my mouth causing major embarassment to me or others. I have not given away top secrets of my job. It's nothing like that.
I just want to talk about martial arts all the time. I just can't help myself. I started this blog to help with this obsession, but you know what? It has not worked so far! I STILL end up segueing martial arts into almost every conversation in which I'm involved. And you know what? That's fine on Tuesday nights when I'm in weapons class, or Thursday nights when I'm at regular class. It's fine on the phone with my friend from karate and it's fine here in our martial arts blogging community.
But it's not fine in line at the grocery store. It's not okay to just mention that I have my bo staff in my car from last week during our "roles and responsibilities" meeting at work. It's not okay when I bring up how I'm missing karate class for the PTA meeting I attended tonight - to my son's gym teacher. (And then because he mentioned that he hurt his knee in basketball, I had to launch into how my chest and arms were so sore a couple of days ago from two days of escrima & bo staff rather than the usual one day of weapons per week.)
It's actually embarrassing. I bring it up and then I realize I sound like I'm flaunting it and try to wrap up the subject. I remind myself of the painfully nerdy kid in school who tells how their dad is a famous movie star and he gets them all the other movie stars' autographs and has dinner with famous people. Everyone knows the kid is full of...vinegar...but they let them ramble on and embarrass themselves.
Stereotype are not usually something one strives for, but I want to be like the stereotypes we see of wise karateka...you know- I want to be like Mr. Miyagi...the strong, silent, wise type.
My question is - Is this something you can learn in your journey - a trait you can assume over the course of your martial arts journey? Or did Mr. Miyagi and those like him already have that calm demeanor? That wise character trait that enables them to know that being silent is the better route to take?
And I'm very serious about this. I have learned to keep my mouth shut in some cases - just since I've started my martial arts journey, but is there a way for me to cultivate this to make it more natural for me as a lifelong "motor mouth"?